thank God it's finally friday. even with a day off — this has been the longest week because it's been so fucking slow around here.

i go to see dr. therapist tonight. it's been awhile. i'm ready-- i'm feeling muddy and unfocused.

it's so weird that one of the most personal and intimate relationships i have right now is with a man --granted he is my therapist... it's just odd to me. i'm not used to having men in my life. i only really have 1 friend that is a guy. then there's my dad and my brother... that's pretty much it, aside from coworkers.

i dunno... maybe it's good that i'm seeing a male therapist... if it was a woman-- i'd probably be too worried about what she thought of me or this or that... with dr. therapist, our only connection is a result of my issues. no worries. less intimidation?

hmmmm...

anyway, i'm ready to go. hopefully i can get refocused and establish some sort of a game plan for myself... i really need a plan.